A Walk in the Park

Its been almost four weeks since the Princess had her birthday.  The weekend following, we went to a new park.  It is fenced in.  I love that.  I almost didn't have to watch my kids, except for the dangerous, high playground equipment and my curious kiddos.  Darn.  Also, they were being cute and having so much fun, that I tried to snap a few pictures.  Of course, I am only uploading those same pictures tonight.  Anyway, here are my beautiful babies.

These are a few of my favorite of Princess up close.....I love her expressions.

And here is Handsome.  The little turkey wouldn't look at me most of the day.  He was too busy running away, looking for the next big thing.  I'm also blaming his running for the lack of focus in the pictures.

And here is my rebel.  Already daring to be different.  Somehow, I actually have more pictures of Handsome than Princess.  That's not supposed to happen for a second born.  I guess he got lucky this time, especially, since it wasn't his birthday.

Which picture is your favorite?  Any chance my babies are starting to look like me?  I still see hubby when I look that them, which really isn't a bad thing.  I just assumed my kiddos would have some of my features, too.

Blessings--

Big Fat F

Some days, I just feel like a failure.  I rolled over and let(made) hubby get up with the kids.  Barely kept up with the messes the kids made, let alone extra laundry, dishes, or (gasp) clean the bathroom.  Had a short temper with the kiddos, hubby, whoever talks to me, and didn't make dinner.  Fed my babies fried fast food (which they actually ate all of).  Some days, I really don't like myself.  I know we all have them, but I usually prefer to keep them to myself.  You know, I'm selfish, I don't want to share my dirty secrets.  I feel Dark.  Dirty.  Un-lovely.


Somehow, there is someone who can look past my muddiness.  Someone who looks me the the eyes and thinks I'm beautiful.  Someone who loves me.


Often, I forget.  I wallow in self-pity.  I try to cover up.  Lately, I've been praying about this.  Sometimes I can't stand myself.  Song of Solomon tells a story of a common girl being courted by a king.  While this story can be interpreted in many ways, I believe the Lord is using it to illustrate how He loves me.  In chapter 1, verse 5, she says she is dark, yet lovely.  She makes a comparison: dark, like the tents of Kedar; lovely, like the curtains of Solomon.  The whole book goes on about their love story.  She begins as an immature girl, and grows to become a mature bride.  I am an immature girl.  I stumble every day.  I am dark.  However, my Lord loves me.  He sees in me what I am to become.  He thinks I am lovely.


One day at a time.  One step.  I know I don't have it figured out, but I do know I'm going to keep walking with Him.  Do you feel dark?  Are you hiding?  He can forgive.  He thinks you are lovely.

I've Missed You

Phew.  Its been a tough week or so.  I don't even remember how long I've been gone and I'm too lazy to figure it out.  15+ hours of CE done and 6 of those LIVE.  Hopefully, at least 50% of those are drug therapy related.  Thank the LORD for PharmCon and freece.com.  They have a library of home study CE and live webcasts several times per week of free and members-only-free CE.  I learned a lot!  A funny side note:  they are actually based in Myrtle Beach (Conway)!  How's that for ironic?  Considering I googled free+live+ce and that's was I got.
Hmm...so since I last posted, besides doing CE, I jumped back on the packing wagon.  I've organized more kiddo toys, packed toys, made a mountain of things to get rid of, suffered from allergies and drug side effects, and made lots of lists about moving.  I might actually start completing the things on those lists.  Anyway, I guess that's all for tonight.

Blessings--

Um, I need a Break

I'm really good at procrastinating.  I even wrote a paper about it in college and gave a speech in high school.  So it should come as no surprise I have LOTS of CE due by the end of March.  AND more to do by the end of June.  So, I'm choosing to (forced) take break from my normal blogging/reading activities in order to focus on my studies.  Hopefully, I'll even be smarter (more smart?) in a week's time.  Lots-o-reading, webcast-viewing, test-taking in store for me.  I know you are jealous; don't cry.  See you in April with lots more head knowledge about legal drugs and another renewed license or two.